Hey, I am xaritena.
Life is hurt but I promise you it’s worth it.
This is my blog. Here you will see a lot of personal posts, poems and plenty of pictures (mostly with quotes on). Hope you get inspired or at least smile. My ask box is always open for everyone. If you need to talk to someone or you need an advice or help with something, I am here for you. You are not alone.
Stay strong and have faith. .
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Why hope never dies?
While I was in Canada I notice many upside downs that were happening in my life but I chose not to pay any attention and focus on the positive until I lost my Iphone. That was it and a huge wave of sadness and misfortune hit me. The smile in my face has completely disappeared, not because of a phone but because the happy bubble I create and hide in, now it’s broken and I can’t hide anymore.
I feel so hopeless.
When I came back home, I went to the bathroom to pick up the laundry and I notice tiny ants walking around the sink. In my family I am the ant killer because I don’t fear them but I never kill them I take a small piece of paper capture them in there and then release them free outside. This time I didn’t care, I open the sink and clean it with water, all the little ants disappeared. That exact moment I was thinking that sometimes hoping is a waste of your time, imagine if I was in their (ants) place I couldn’t survive and then I swear a little ant walk behind the tap of the sink, I should have open the sink again an drown it too but I didn’t.
After a couple hours I went again and this time the sink was full of tiny ants walking around. I open the sink again and clean it this time I clean behind the tap too. I thought the same thing I was thinking before hoping is a waste of your time. Out of nowhere a small ant was walking in the tap of the sink and then another one and another on. I felt like they were saying to me hope will never die, keep hoping. The ants find a way to survive so I can too.
I still wish I was in the place of the ant who drown, at least those they don’t have to fight to survive anymore.
Το μήνυμα της ημέρας!
I have a teacher in my school and she keeps nocking me down. She made me so insecure, I was feeling so worthless and whenever I was writing a test in her class my hands was shaking and I just wanted to cry so badly. I was waiting the time to go back home and cry in my room. I couldn’t think, neither write anything. I was getting sick and I was always trying to avoid going to her class. And whenever I was in her class she always saying stuff in the class just to make me feel bad. She never mention my name but she was always showing me and pointing out all the mistakes I was doing. At the begging of the school I try to talk to her, to ask her what I did to her and what I did wrong and I can’t write good in her tests. I don’t have to say she made me feel the most stupid person in the entire school.
Now, I am done. School is over and my exams are right in the corner. I was so mad and upset and I remember I told to my self “I will never study for that bitch ever again” but those exams are not for her, it’s not HER future is MINE!
That bitch ruin my life for 7-8 months but she is over, I am not worthless or stupid, I am a dreamer and a fighter and I am a hell clever one!
On Friday is my chance not to prove her wrong, she doesn’t matter any more. I will prove to myself that I CAN! Do whatever put my mind on!
Wish me luck!
No one is perfect. We all have our ups and downs. Good days, bad days. We make wrong or right decisions. Meet someone new, lose someone else. This is who we are. We are humans. So keep walking brother with your head up high. So the people who hates you will see that they didn’t beat you, they just made you stronger.(:
You know what our problem is and we can’t find someone to LOVE us?
It’s that we are looking for the perfect guy far away but the truth is that the perfect guy for you is even closer and you can’t see him because we are so blind from the external beauty.
And in the end we have a broken heart because this boy hurt us, hurt our feelings and make us believe we are not good enough. But honestly out t
here, there are so many good guys who will give everything just to make you smile, to protect you and give you a shoulder to cry on. For once in your life stop looking with your eyes and start looking with your heart. It takes time, maybe a few days or weeks or maybe a month or two or maybe years but you will see, in the end you will find a guy who will love you with all your imperfections, you will see that your broken heart will heal by his side because he will love you.